Prayers...

Today was a hard day... I usually am able to take "complaints" and not take it personally... Today... today was hard... shaking... crying... why do people cause pain like that?
I ended up praying for him so that he finds peace...

Blessings by a Higher Consciousness...

I was so fortunate to have the time and have friends be available to have a wonderful experience - blessings by the Angels and Company! You have to have an open mind, heart, and being to even think about doing this.

Because the family was away (yes, EVERYONE) I was able to take this time and opportunity to do something for myself. ME. There were many tears shed, lots of breathing in and out, and believing in myself.

Now, I have to think - what makes me happy? What brings joy for me and me alone?

I have to make myself happy in order for me to make others happy.

Heavenly Father, and all the Angels - please guide me to be who I am supposed to be, to do what Iʻm supposed to do, and to be strong when the time comes to make hard decisions.

Thanksgiving weekend...

What a wonderful Thanksgiving Time! I am truly blessed to have friends and family surrounding me!

With everything thatʻs been going on, Iʻm so glad that Iʻve cleared the air, made things known, and in the process, finding ME. I am here on this earth to learn, grow, and be the person God created me to be. I must fulfill that before I can depart from this world! So, I have a lot to learn!! Iʻm not leaving anytime soon!!!

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Wishing all of you a wonderful and thankful holiday season.

I am so truly grateful and thankful for my family - my kiddies keep me in check and so feeling very loved!!!My health - physically & mentally, My friends - so supportive!!! My God - He keeps me REAL. My love - thank you.

Cinna-YUM!!!

Mixed the Red Velvet topping - Macadamia Nut cream AND there was also Guava cream... geez.. I'm gonna have to run this off at the GYM!!! It was sooo well worth it!!

Have you been to Cinnayums in Kailua??? I don't know when they started making the Red Velvet Pancakes.. but what the heck...

Me & the kiddies

I LOVE MY KIDS!!! They're leaving with their dad... well... today! SIGH!!! They're going to the Big Island for Thanksgiving with his family. I wanted to spend time with them before they left for the weekend. I already miss them! I know, they're only another island away, but my little feeties... I do love them dearly. God - please watch over them and keep them safe!!!

Dinner and TIME with the Babes!!!

Dinner at The Old Spaghetti Factory!

Visiting Nanang...

My nephew, John-John, looks JUST LIKE HIS DAD... spitting image!!! He is visiting here until the 29th and will be back on the mainland thereafter. Sooo glad I got a chance to see him and he saw my 2 of 3 kiddies. :P

Had a nice quick visit with Nanang Pipay! It's been so long!!! She of course looks fabulous as ever!!!

Busy week...

Yup, her too! Both were not really smiling - I made Deana smile though...

Game against Aiola - held them off in the first half, but we were so exhausted by 2nd half!! Lost 3-0 in the end. It was all good, but had to ice two of our players... Enjoying the moment...

Sorry for the delay. It's been a week... Anyway, started the weekend with a great breakfast with a SMILE!!! Gotta LOVE Japanese bakeries! They make eating breakfast fun!!! This one had apples inside! Gonna try the Choco Bear next time...

Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see.

~Mark Twain

What's on my desktop

There are days when I am just thinking nothing.. and when I close everything out on my computer at the end of the day, this is what I see...

My Mokulele boy and peace.

When Joy is Missing in Your Life

What choice do you make on a dreary day, when the flowers wilt and the clouds hover in shades of gray? When the one you love speaks a harsh word, your body aches and the work you once loved seems but a bore? When there’s much to do and little time to do it, mistakes slow your progress, crisis holds you down, and you feel all alone in the wilderness of life?

These are the times when it’s easy to forget that joy is a choice. Joy is not just something that happens when circumstances are great—unless of course that’s the only time you allow yourself to receive the joy that is here for you. YOUR Joy cannot be limited by the people, events and circumstances in your life.

You are the sole individual capable of placing shackles on the feet of your joy. Fortunately, you are also the one who holds the key to those shackles.

Are You Tapped In, Tuned In, Turned On to Joy?

Joy is a choice…a daily, hourly, momentary choice. In any situation, we may choose to react in whatever way we please.
If you are blessed with the gift of life again tomorrow, you will once more face opportunities to choose your way back to joy. Sometimes, the choice is easy. A hummingbird takes flight right before your eyes, the sun shines perfectly on your garden, your mate’s happy mood brightens your day. There is no difficulty in choosing joy in such moments.

But variety is the spice of life.

Compassion & Suffering...

“When another person makes you suffer, it is because he suffers deeply within himself, and his suffering is spilling over. He does not need punishment; he needs help. That’s the message he is sending.”

— Thich Nhat Hanh

What is a mental breakdown?

Mental breakdown (also known as a nervous breakdown) is a non-medical term used to describe an acute, time-limited phase of a specific disorder that presents primarily with features of depression or anxiety.
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With that being said... I think it's time for me to really make a decision for me. Not for anyone else. For me. And I know I will hurt other people along the way, even those that I love very dearly, I have to make myself happy...

I was told (and I quote) "As long as I know what I need to do in my heart, and have cleared this in my soul and with God, I have to leave the rest ot Him. He will carry me through this."

Another quote - "Live is a long lesson in humility".
* So does this mean I have to humble myself and take it? That's the whole reason why I left him in the first place...

Quote...

Motivational Quote of the Day

"Always do right - this will gratify some and astonish the rest."

Mark Twain

And Bob Marley Lives on...

SHA - Chrislyn's first game!

Chrislyn's first game - SHA vs. MidPac!!! She's #20 and playing full back.

I am so proud of her!!! Even though the score was not in their favor, they all played well for their first time together!

GOOO LANCERS!!!

It's 11:11 on 11/11/11

Yup! I got it on film! 11:11, on 11/11/11!!!!

Waipio Soccer... SIGNAGE!

Where I work, signage is a big deal. You have to be clear and consistent with your words. In this case, the soccer fields in waipio has 3 different signs, and although it's leading you to the right direction, the consistency is so not!

Veteran's Day Weekend...

Veteran's Day weekend was Super Busy... I'll post a few photos in a bit...

Costco and their "deals"...

I was a Costco one day with my sister - gosh... it was awhile ago...

Anyway, here's this couch. It was a GREAT DEAL, I should've bought it. It was like under $200.00 and came with everything there. Soooo comfortable.

Next time I went again, no more. :(

Note to self - when you see it at Costco, just buy the kayak...

APEC - It's here and everywhere too!

Signs everywhere to be mindful of APEC and traffic... lots of TRAFFIC...

Harder for some - especially those in the Waikiki area, but where I'm at - it's okay. :)

These people on the other hand, traffic is certainly not the issue.

We are the 99% and have a voice. They've been camping out since last week...

And there she is again...

Here at Ward Center - and lo and behold - there's my sis again! She's all over the place...

Saw her on Maui..

Saw her at Windward Mall...

Saw her at Ala Moana Shopping Center...

She's everywhere!!!

Just a little...

PATIENCE DAISY...

Why???

So my question of the day -

I call, email, text, facebook someone. They post their status updates, answer everything else from everyone else, except mine. I don't understand...

Why say you're available or you'll call back, but it doesn't happen?

Sometimes I think I'm taken for granted and I can wait... But y'know, I have a life too...

Motivational Quote of the Day

"Things turn out best for the people who make the best out of the way things turn out."

Art Linkletter

* So when there's an argument, it doesn't make any sense to anybody - it isn't the best choise to argue in the first place!

Motivational Quote for Today

Motivational Quote of the Day

"Empty yourself and let the universe fill you."

Yogi Tea

Yummy Lunchie!!!

Ate here for lunch today! YUM - Hawaiian Poke Bowl!!!

Thing 1...

Yesterday, Thing 1 had her physical exam. Assessment was great. She's good on height (well, not that she can do anything about it), weight (well, relatively OK on that too), etc. Then it came to the talk about having the 2 shots. Again, I was pulled back to when she was a baby and how much she did not like shots. The crying, the screaming, the everything trying to get out of having shots.

So here we were, at 17 years of age, and she's still the same little girl that cannot and will not deal with shots. :( I held her again like when she was little... as she leaned into me, the crocodile tears came down my shirt... sigh...

I don't think it matters what age your children are, they're still your baby.. And I wanted to stay like this for just a few minutes more... I love being a Mom... I love being her Mommy.

Fairy...

Is it a sign that her wings are falling???? What is going on???

Thank you, Lord for giving me such wonderful and loving children. They could've been with friends and not even wanting to go trick or treating.. but here they were, hanging with me and I am so truly grateful!!

My LOVES - I love you!!!

Halloween in Kane'ohe this time...

My little LOVES! Jayna gave up her teen time to be with me!!! Thing 3 of course our Ninja, Thing 2 all dressed in black (no, I don't know what she was), and Thing 1 - fairy...

Need I say anything more about Leo????

Admin time - Lele (cross dresser monkey/bear/???), Janna as the pirate, Sarah our witch, and me again!

All dressed - me (the sock monkey), Sandi (Eve from Wall-E), Sheina as the sexy witch, and our very own Ashlyn as a zebra!

My "nerdy'" daughter going off to school yesterday - Happy Halloween!

More of the weekend adventures...

And we end up at Taco Del Mar for a yummy Mexican dinner!

My Oldest as a Rocket ship... doesn't it say 3T???

He is actually my BIG pumpkin. :)

Here are the pumpkins - the BIG one was the one he chose!

What a weekend!!!

No Chrislyn this time, but Pili was there to represent!!! And she got her own pumpkin!! Ethan got his own BIG pumpkin...

Still had time to go pumpkin patch picking!!! Thank you Aloun Farms once again for GREAT pumpkins!!!

Went to Ala Moana to look for costumes and stuff. I was at Old Navy looky for a monkey outfit to put together... Ethan was busy in the Lego store making "stuff".. I decided on making my own "thing" :)

Surf Sale at KSBE! These 3 gals are the next "Na Leo" - they were just fabulous and their harmony was AMAZING!!! Look out for them... okay so I forgot their names, but if you see them - that's them!!! :P